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Jan. 1st, 2010

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Thank you to my real friends

Originally published at Megan Lockman. You can comment here or there.

I wanted to thank all my friends that have stuck by me this past year. I know I’ve done some really crazy stuff and I know that I haven’t always been the best of a friend back to some people. But some of you have stuck by me regardless and some of you always lend an ear when I need one. Some o f you are always there to reassure me or to tell me I’m wrong when I need to hear it. So thank you to my friends just for being my friend. I love you all.

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Dec. 31st, 2009

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Good bye 2009, hello 2010!

Originally published at Megan Lockman. You can comment here or there.

This year I officially started school at WCC and I am just about to go into my 4th quarter. I’ve taken several art classes and am excited about taking figure drawing and painting this quarter.

This year I celebrated my 22nd birthday in style dressed as a pirate. I kissed a girl dressed as a sexy police officer. I drank more than my fair share of citrus tequila and then blacked out halfway through my birthday party.

This year I celebrated my 2 year anniversary with Aaron. Though as I recall, we didn’t really do anything for it.

This year I joined some friends at Linux Fest for the first time and had an absolutely amazing weekend. We celebrated James’ 80th birthday, I got a shimmy in the face from a belly dancer, and I made wire people with old Ethernet cables.

This year I had a manic phase that lasted 2 weeks. I took a break from Aaron, moved in with my sister, got too close to Jeremy, then spent the next couple weeks trying to tell Aaron what I’d done. In the process I believe I crippled my relationships with both Aaron and Jeremy. :(

This year I watched as Tony, Andy, and Aaron blew up a watermelon into pieces so small we could no longer find them.

This year I went to my first Depeche Mode concert and it was absolutely positively the most amazing thing I’ve ever seen. I’m still so happy that I got seats as close as I did. Aaron and I stayed in a nifty little hotel where we shared bathrooms with other guests.

This year my Halloween was admittedly depressing because I had to work.

This year I successfully cooked my first turkey on my own and it turned out perfect. It was the first time I’d thrown a Thanksgiving at my home and even though we were all very tired before the night really even began, we still had fun.

This year I finally decided I want to get help for being bipolar and I scheduled my first appointment for January 22nd. This is a big deal for me.

This year I stopped biting my nails and started putting my clothes away into the drawers. Believe it or not this is definitely worthy of posting on my year end list.

This year I remembered Aaron’s dad’s name and had a very enjoyable Christmas at his home watching Star Trek in HD. I also received a binary clock and an R2D2 garbage can!

All in all, this year really was not the best, though I had some good times. I’ve recently been informed that one of my really good friends, Tony, is likely joining the military and will not be here for the next four years. I fully support him doing what he needs to do to make him happy, but god damn I am going to miss him. I haven’t really done much with myself this year except school. I am glad I’m in school and I’m glad that’s making progress. I’m nervous about the outcome and I’m sincerely hoping to find any job soon after I graduate. It may mean keeping my current one and starting another until I pay off some debt and get on my feet again, but we shall see. Here’s to hoping something happens with my life next year. Good bye 2009!

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Oct. 25th, 2009

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Well this is highly disturbing... I can only hope that this does not affect us seeing as our nation was founded in part on free speech.

http://blogs.usatoday.com/oped/2009/10/column-just-say-no-to-blasphemy-laws-.html

Oct. 13th, 2009

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My Dad Is Finally Here :

Originally published at Megan Lockman. You can comment here or there.

In the past six years, I’ve seen my dad twice. He lived in Texas for a long time. He’s been on the road since July and he got to Bellingham last night. Tonight I finally got to see him and I almost cried. I missed him so much! We went out for pizza and talked for a while. I got to play with the old toys in his toy chest which he ended up letting me have unofficially. My and my sister have to decide who gets it. I really want it for more sentimental reasons than she does. I dunno, I’ll argue that with her later. I was just so happy to finally see my dad again. It’s been far too long.

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Sep. 16th, 2009

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Learning ASL

Originally published at Megan Lockman. You can comment here or there.

So I’m going to be hiring a tutor to help teach me ASL. I’d really like to become more fluent in it. I have a hard time understanding people when they are trying to say something because they’re so fast but I just need to learn the signs and grammar. I found a woman with 8 years experience in ASL and she helps to teach deaf foreign exchange students how to sign. She also knows a lot of people in the deaf community and said she could possibly introduce me to some of them if I want more practice. I think it will be fun. I’m meeting with her on Monday and assuming I like her, which I probably will, then hopefully I’ll get to start learning ASL soon. =)

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Sep. 5th, 2009

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maybe this will last a while? …

Originally published at Megan Lockman. You can comment here or there.

So kind of spur of the moment, Aaron decided yesterday that he’d like to try a fast for a couple days. In all honesty it should have been prepared for at least a day or two ago but for the sake of time and his schedule he decided it would be perfect to go from Friday night through to Monday night (since we planned dinner with an old friend of mine last week for that night). So Aaron and I are doing a two day fast together. I don’t think he’ll really get the results he was looking for in two days. Not weight loss. Just overall feeling better. I’m not sure if he understands the point of a fast. I think he’s just more curious to see whether or not he can actually do it.

But after thinking about it for a while and remembering the days back in high school when I just didn’t eat to not eat, it made me think how much I really don’t want to do that. I don’t want to not eat for the sake of wanting to starve myself or injure myself both physically and mentally. A fast, to me, is supposed to be a time where you take control over your cravings, where you detox, where you come to a realization that your eating habits and lifestyle need a second glance. I was initially only going to do the next couple days with Aaron, but after thinking about it for a while I really would like to do an extended fast. Maybe some on again off again. The point of it would not be weight loss or a sad attempt at dieting. lol My hope would be that after disciplining myself for an extended period of time and after kicking some of my cravings to the curb, by the time my fast is over I won’t even want to be eating the way I am now.

Seriously, Aaron and I eat out all the time. I drink soda all the time. I only vaguely remember the times I ever eat veggies. Given I have been eating a lot of fruit lately, but that’s only been recently. My hope is that after fasting for an extended period of time, I’ll be more aware of what food I put into my body. Food is delicious and it always will be, but food is about feeding your body what it needs to remain energetic and to get you through the day. As much as I LOVE alfredo sauce, it serves no real purpose in a healthy diet, especially in the quantities I use it. I love pizza, but I don’t need more than a slice or two in a single sitting. Stuff like that. It’s not about weight loss specifically, though that would be a nice benefit. It’s about changing eating patterns that I’ve had for 22 years. It’s about thinking twice about eating a burger and fries vs fruits and veggies. I’d really like to try fasting on a more regular basis. Not for sure on long term fasts, but fasting in short periods can be good for you (so I’ve read) in the long run. Intermittent fasting seems like a good idea. If I can get Aaron’s support, I’m just going to go for it. I think it will be very difficult if I can’t get his support so I’m going to talk to him about it when I get home. I guess we’ll see how this goes (IF it even goes anywhere).

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Aug. 25th, 2009

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This is going to seem like a stupid question probably. I'm looking for an outdoor track I can run on free of charge fairly often. I know there's Civic Field. I don't know if it's open to the public when there aren't events going on (again, I know this probably sounds stupid...). I also know the high schools have tracks. I live near Sehome. Do you think there would be any issues with me running there in the morning or would it be considered trespassing? I don't really feel like going on lake trails. I really just like a track. Let me know =P

Aug. 22nd, 2009

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If this were a Christian nation…

Originally published at Megan Lockman. You can comment here or there.

I know this blog is VERY long, but I strongly encourage you to read it just for the sake of some interesting reading.

I read a blog post today and had several thoughts on it so I’m going to summarize the post and add a few thoughts of my own. Also, since the author made several very good points I will be going word for word on several much of what was written so I will give her credit at the end.

For a long while there’s been a constant debate about whether the USA can or should be called a Christian nation. I would have to argue no on that, not only for the reason that church and state should always remain separate, but because in doing so we’d place the label of Christianity on a country where I, an atheist, reside. Perhaps that’s not the point of the debate though, so for argument’s sake let’s pretend that we did call ourselves a Christian nation. What would change, if anything? What would it look like if the nation’s current policy questions were looked at through the lens of truly Christian principles?

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Singing Blog

Originally published at Megan Lockman. You can comment here or there.

I still think it’s funny just how much I sing when nobody is around… Like seriously all the freaking time. But as soon as a person walks into the room I am dead quiet. I have such a hard time singing in front of people. There are several songs I’ve recorded and had people listen to and they tell me it’s really good but my brain just doesn’t ever believe it. I am constantly printing out lyrics to songs I love to sing just because I like to have them around for when I’m alone. Especially at work. That’s a great time to sing. =P I think just for the sake of it I’m going to list the songs either I think I sing okay or that people have told me I sing okay. I am not sure I can remember them all but I’ll likely come back and edit if I remember more.

The Way I Am – Ingrid Michaelson
Chasing Pavements – Adele
Stop – Sam Brown
Someone To Watch Over Me – Ira Gershwin
Can’t Make You Love Me – Bonnie Raitt
Somewhere Over The Rainbow – Judy Garland
Almost Lover – A Fine Frenzy
Grow Old With You – Adam Sandler

I dunno, I just love singing them. =) Maybe one day I should do some karaoke lol… I just don’t know if I could get the guts to go up and sing in front of people alone. lol

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Aug. 16th, 2009

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Testing the facebook notes/blog feature

Originally published at Megan Lockman. You can comment here or there.

So, I already have this blog cross posting to Livejournal and updating my twitter when I post. Now I’m attempting to import my entries to facebook seeing as I have several friends on facebook that don’t have access to my twitter account. (wow I fee like such a cyber nerd just saying all this…)

ANYWAY… this post is really just about whether or not it will update my notes after I hit publish. =) We shall see.

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